Yes, it’s been a while… again! My bad! But to make up for it, I will be taking another GIANT leap very soon. I got news this week that I will need to undergo jaw surgery again, as the work done during the first surgery did not remain effective.
In anticipation of the difficult experience that is coming, I have created a WordPress blog in which I will document my recovery process and progress following my upcoming jaw surgery. For those interested in following this journey there, the link is https://katiesjawsurgery.wordpress.com/ .
Do you ever feel blocked by one person or one silly little thing? For the last week or so, I’ve been stuck when it comes to taking leaps of faith. There’s been one leap that I haven’t quite been able to make, and I feel like my inability to do so has stunted my ability to make any others, no matter how unrelated to the one they may be. The thing is, faith isn’t something that we can apply in select parts of our life, and still expect fruitful results. Just like your faith and trust in the Lord increases each time you take a chance for Him or each time you place your trust in Him, it is set back a little bit too each time you fail to do those things. So although I may try to take leaps here and there, the ground that those leaps helps me to make in my faith are then only offset by those leaps that I refuse to make. So what’s the point?
But today I chose to take that leap. I chose to let go of some anger and resentment towards some people (some friends) that have recently caused me pain. I’m not typically the type to hold on to negative feelings like that, but those people’s actions and opinions are ones that will only continue to cause problems for me and my loved ones in the future. I think that lingering nature of the problem is the reason why I have been struggling to just let go and forgive them. It’s been my way of protecting myself, and keeping myself from becoming comfortable enough to be hurt again. Also, I do not want to forget the issues we’ve had with one another because they are not small ones that should be easily forgotten. But the Lord really spoke to my heart yesterday evening. Trust me, a 10 mile run alone gives His voice a lot of time to be heard and understood. I am thankful that God took that time to convict my heart, to point out how wrong and destructive harboring anger in my heart can be. He comforted me with the reminder that forgetting and acting as if no wrong was committed is not exactly what He calls us to in His Word. We are called to forgive. And to love people despite the wrongs they’ve committed against us. So that is what I decided to do. Even though trust was lost in areas and will likely not be felt again for a long time, that does not mean that I cannot choose to forgive and to continue to love my friends anyway. And that is what I will do.
Are you harboring anger or resentment towards someone or something? Let it go! In the Bible, it says that those that hold on to anger are considered fools. In addition to this, anger is a way that the devil gains a foothold in our hearts and in our lives (Ephesians 4:26-27). Why give him that sort of power? Instead, rise up and out of those chains that Satan tries to hold you with, choose to be free in the Lord’s love and in the peace that He can offer you. It may seem difficult at times, but that leap of faith, that display of trust in our God will not go unrewarded. He’s got your back and He will catch you if you take that leap into His arms.
So I am very aware that I’m not doing so hot in keeping up with this blog. It’s been nine months since I started it and last posted. There are so many random and obviously irrelevant things that I could’ve done in those nine months… I could’ve had a child, I could’ve watched all ten seasons of Friends 79 times, I could’ve added 4.5 inches to my hair length… But those things aren’t the topic of this blog. The focus of this blog is the little, daily leaps of faith that one takes to give glory to the Father. And to be honest, that’s what I’ve been doing these last nine months. I’ve taken some little leaps of faith over the last nine months that have built up to becoming giant leaps of faith, and therefore giant life-changers. Writing this is giving me an opportunity to look back and reflect on the last nine months of my life, the last 270 days of God’s work in my heart and in my life. And boy, He’s done a lot!
One leap of faith that I took recently involved bringing a hammer to my jaw. Yup, you read that correctly. This summer, I underwent double jaw surgery to correct some structural problems that had been causing various functional issues for me. Although I did not see this procedure’s connection to my faith and spiritual life when I originally went into it, I have since made those connections and begun to see how God used this experience to teach me more about myself and about His faithfulness. This surgery posed tons of risks, and to be honest, thinking back on it now, I can’t believe that I did it. But I’m so glad that I did. In the months of recovery that followed my surgery, during which I could not do many simple things (such as eating, reading and moving), God revealed His gentleness to me. And the quiet strength that only He can instill in us. I truly do not believe that I would have had the same recovery experience, one that resulted in just as much mental healing as physical healing, without the Lord’s presence in my heart and mind. Even now, I can tell that God is still using this experience to remind me of His continuous offer of peace and comfort.
I am still recovering from my surgery that took place nearly five months ago; and some days have proven to be better than others. I’ve kind of grown to appreciate the daily pain of healing though. As mentioned above, it serves as a reminder that God’s offer of peace and comfort is one that is extended to us on a continuous basis. We need only ask for and accept it. This daily pain also reminds me that it is okay to feel uncomfortable. Just as the discomfort in my jaw is evidence of healing and progress of my physical body, the discomfort in my heart is evidence of the healing and progress taking place in my soul. This life is not meant to be comfortable for us, because as children of the most High, this world is not our home. The fact is… the closer that I grow to our God, the farther I feel from this world. And I’ve come to understand that this is not a bad thing, as long as we do not abandon God’s call to “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation” (Mark 16:15). Although we are to extend our hand to this broken world, just as God extended His to us while we were still in our sinful and broken state (Romans 5:8), we should not make our home here. These are just two examples of ways in which God has used a leap of faith to teach and reach me on a new level, and in a new way. Isn’t He just awesome?!
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
Taking daily leaps of faith for the furthering of the Lord’s kingdom. That is my goal and the purpose of this blog. I know that the power of the Spirit will enable me to “trust without borders” and accomplish this goal. For it is through these little leaps of faith by us, His hands and feet on this earth, that God accomplishes His purposes here. Open up your eyes! How can you be trusting? Where can you be leaping?